There are a lot of things we can say about the Pennsylvania ambulance employee who robbed a convenience store with a pocket knife. Sure it damages our reputation in the public eye. It compromises the already shaky trust the average Joe affords us. I’m sure all this will be said in reference to James Rabbitz actions. But I read something else in the story. When I read about how he went into a store with surveillance cameras, wore his uniform, drove his car and went home to wait on his basement for authorities, I read self destruct.
This guy wasn’t looking for an easy 200 bucks. This guy was looking to implode his life. Pure and simple. I say this because I know people who’ve done it. Folks who just wake up one morning and decide to push the self destruct button on their life. When we work in EMS it isn’t that hard to do. One minute we’re buying a cup of coffee, the next minute we’re on CNN.
Ray decided to steal the narcotics from the units parked down at the shop. Mark went home and put a .44 in his mouth. Matt just put his bike helmet on, walked out the front door and never came back. And each time it happens I think, “Next time…next time, I’ll see it coming.”
But that never quite works.